Not Today

Nope.....F it.....Not today! I'm not going to post my shiny, hopeful post that I had prepared. I don't want to be a bummer, especially on the day after Valentine's day, but I just cant do it.

We lost a family member over the weekend. He was WAY too young and WAY too impactful to go so soon. My planned message was about doubt and moving past it, but I can't today. I'm a bit stuck. Moving past doubt will be for another day!

My cousin discovered he had an aggressive type of brain cancer while in his mid 50's. Over the last nearly 2 years, he showed us all how to live and love while facing your biggest adversity.

He was a world renowned doctor and expert in treating and curing (believe it or not) cancer. He was a researcher, innovator, curer, teacher, counsellor, colleague, mentor and friend to so many in such a profound way.

A son, grandson, brother, cousin, husband, father, uncle, nephew, leaving so many loving touches and words. A friend, neighbor, collaborator, supporter, fraternity brother, fellow graduate, elevating so many lives.

I know that these feelings of loss and frustration will temper over time. The questions of worthiness will settle down. I know that, in his honor and example, I will feel hopeful and optimistic again soon.

But not today....not for now.....taking a few breaths and regrouping today.....

Hold those that you love and care about a little closer today. Give them an extra hug!